Every day I receive a daily meditation and sometimes some sound rhetoric on how to improve myself. This morning I received this article by Madison Taylor from “Being Aware is the First Step; Big Steps On Life’s Path”:
“Awareness is when we are able to realize what we are doing. We observe ourselves, noticing our reactions, actions, and choices as if we were a detached viewer. Awareness is the first step to change because we can’t make a change unless we are aware that one needs to be made in the first place. We can then begin understanding why we are doing what we are doing. Afterward, it becomes difficult not to change because we are no longer asleep to the truth behind our behaviors. We also begin to realize that, just as much as we are the root source behind the causes for our behaviors, we are also the originator for any changes that we want to happen.
There is a freedom that comes with awareness. Rather than thinking that we are stuck in a repetitive cycle where there is no escape, we begin to see that we very much play a hand in creating our lives. Whether we are aware of them or not, our behaviors and choices are always ours to make. Our past and our present no longer have to dictate our future when we choose to be aware. We are then free to move beyond our old limits, make new choices, and take new actions. With awareness, our paths can’t help but wind us forward in our lives while paving the way for new experiences and new ways of being. It is through awareness that we can continue to consciously evolve.”
Now, the reason I shared this with you is that this is a topic that I’ve been struggling with for a long time. Not being aware of myself and understanding that I need to make changes in my life, but being able to put this into words that explain how the process works and how we are constantly readjusting ourselves to be better people.
Some choices you can’t take back. After you’ve made those choices and realized that you really, royally fucked up – there isn’t anything you can do, but apologize, change and move onto the next day differently. That’s the key – if you are aware of the royal fuck up then you fix it, apologize, or change your direction because now that you are aware you can’t stay the same. You’ve changed just by knowing.
I don’t think I ever want to walk through this world not believing that I can change or improve myself by making better choices. We can’t know what we don’t know, so sometimes life really is a roll of the dice. Being aware of our failings as human beings is just as important as being aware of our gifts we give to our world – however small or large that world is.
The hard part, the part that you have to “beware” of is that not everyone is going to change with you. Not everyone is in your thought process nor do they understand that people can change. Sometimes it’s almost like you are living on a different plane in the universe. Knowing and being aware that not everyone is going to change with you is a hard pill to swallow, especially when you find yourself drifting away from people that you always believed would be in your life.
Life doesn’t stay the same and I think we all know that. Things happen that we can’t explain or even begin to understand. How we react to those things is something we do have control over; unfortunately, that involves choice. We make our own choices and even though we may make the wrong ones sometimes, I don’t believe that we have to “live with those choices” we make. Once we become aware of how our decisions have affected others – good or bad – then we have another choice to make…how do we move on?
I can’t take back my bad decisions. I’ve made peace with them, apologized when I had to and I changed as a person because of them. I’ve never wanted to intentionally hurt someone, but we all know that intentional or not, hurt still happens because of our choices. I’m also fully aware that eventually I will do something stupid, mean or crazy and have to readjust my life again…but maybe if it happens again or “starts” to happen, I’ll see it BEFORE I do it because I’ve already done stupid, mean or crazy?? Good can come from the dumb things we do if you are willing to accept yourself as you are, be aware of what you’ve done, make amends when you can and love life anyway. Moving onto better things knowing that I have learned what not to do is good.
So, after all the explaining about the bad decisions and how to be aware of them, change from them and accept who you are – let’s focus on all of the great decisions we make too! No one really wants to focus on them because they get hung up on all of the negative emotions associated with the bad. How can you possibly become happy and at peace when you know that you’ve made bad decisions? You make the good choice – the good decision – to change for the better. You learn from mistakes and grow from them. You let yourself off the hook. You move forward knowing and being aware of how good life really can be. Those are all wonderful choices!
I mean, really? Who wants to go through life regretting every bad choice? How can anyone be happy with regret hanging around their neck? Who wants to live a life of yesterdays? The universe gives us what we need to move forward. We receive the people we need, the love we need and the life we were meant to have if we just follow the path that opens up for us when we are fully aware of who we are.
Memories are there for a reason. They are there for us to look back on from time to time. They are there for us to cherish and remember who we once were. Then we look at where we are now. We get excited for the present and who we are now! We have a future to behold and look forward to!!! Embrace your today. Let yourself be at peace with your past. Forgive yourself and forgive others. Not because you forget, but because forgiveness moves you forward. Love moves us to be better than yesterday. Be at peace. Accept yourself as you are. Be aware of your choices. Beware of looking back and holding on to a past that has passed. Life makes us aware of what we can do for others as well as for ourselves. Open your heart to all the love and gratitude that the universe is pouring into you.